You are the best friend I have ever had B.

I love you so very much Monica. None of the public records work I was doing matters anymore none of if. All I want is my best friend back. I am so very sorry. I am so very sorry. You are the most beautiful precious soul that I have ever been able to hold hands. I had the most beautiful person with me everyday and I focused on stuff that doesn’t even matter. None of it matters. All that mattered to me was you, but I needed to do it for my children, but now that you are gone I realize I was so very wrong. All I wanted was to love you for the rest of my life and know that I would be able to hold you.

The pain of losing you… I don’t know how to even explain how bad it hurts. I voluntarily dismissed my case today because you were right all of this time and I was so very wrong. I should have ben focused on you and loving you. Not people that never cared about me.

All I can do is keep trying to walk forward and hope I can hold your hand again and feel your love that is the beautiful sunshine in my life.

You are the most precious person in this world. Never forget that Monica. Always know that you are loved, and you always will be.

I love you so very much Monica. I am so very sorry.

Please Lord make the pain stop.  Please Lord make the pain stop.  Please.  I just want to hold and be held my best and only friend.

Please forgive me Monica.  Please know that I love you and I always will.  I am so very sorry B. I will always be your B Monica. Always.

I just want my best friend back Lord. Please let her know how much I love her and that I am so very sorry.